I’ve been contemplating whether I
should write about this or should I just keep it with me. It’s been bugging me
and I just can’t see why it’s a big deal. Maybe it was my fault, but then
everyone is different. Aren’t we all?
“That’s so rude”
A screeching voice suddenly
interrupted the class. I was paying attention to the talk given in front of the
class the whole time. Of course I was shocked. What happened? I saw the lecturer walking in fast pace towards me
and my friends at the back. I gave signals to my friends to put down their
phone. This one particular lecturer really despise anyone who uses our phones
during class, like, legit, she would go insane if she saw anyone using their
phone.
Unfortunately for me, sitting at the
end of the line. She stopped right beside me. I wasn’t scared or anything. I
mean, I wasn’t doing anything wrong, or did I? She snatched away my phone that
I put on the right side of the desk and started lecturing about how rude it was
to put our phone on the desk during class.
Wait what?
Perplexed. I stared at her, trying
to figure out, how it is wrong? I wasn’t even playing with my phone. I was
listening to the talk given by pelajar tokoh fss 2017, who just graduated a few
days ago. I was taking mental notes of her ways of studying and everything. Of
course she did said that she never used her phone during class, I didn’t too. I
only use it if I want to refer to notes online or if I ever wanted to google
anything.
This
is absurd. I told myself as the lecturer
keep on talking about my ‘rudeness’ I was staring at her in disbelief and my
friends were giving me eye contact, almost as if saying they were sorry. They
were the ones who used their ones during class, but since I was sitting on the
furthest side and she could only snatched my phone instead of theirs. I didn’t
mind though, I thought that yeah okay she is just using me for example. Ok.
“Ni yang
membezakan awak dengan pelajar dean list yang tengah bagi talk dekat depan. Dia
baru bagitau that she ut her phone on silent mode and but it inside her bag,
not on her desk. That’s why she’s a dean list student. And seeing the way
you’re putting your phone on the desk, Nampak sangat you’re not paying
attention. Macam mana nak Berjaya in life? See, she’s brought up by her parents
who are professionals, that’s why she has great attitude unlike yours.”
That’s when I realized, this
lecturer, has gone too far. Just because the girl’s parents are specialized
doctor and a lawyer. Being brought up by professionals, doesn’t mean that my
parents or anyone’s parents did a bad job in raising us. Everyone is different,
everyone view life and things their doing differently. Everyone have their
norms, and ideology of their own, to know what’s wrong and what’s right. Everyone
is different and yet, this lecturer, who obviously know how society work, since
she is a lecturer of social science, who should know and understand how human
socialized, how human thinks and all those related.
My parents did a great job in
raising me up, even though they were busy. If I did anything wrong, blame it on
me. I was the one who decided to act like so. Not my parents, and it’s not due
to how they brought me up. The thing that irked me the most would be how she
said I’m not going to succeed in life. Who are you to foresee my future? Even
if I’m sitting at the back, doesn’t mean I have no intention on studying well
in university. My parents had sent me so far away from home, far away from my
comfort zone, far away from my friends, I no longer have access to go around KL
on weekends as I pleased. Yet, you’re talking shit about how I have no wawasan
and semangat untuk belajar.
You should just tell us to put away
our phones and not talk about how our parents brought us up and how our future
is without knowing how well I’m doing in class for the time being. How I’ve
been doing pretty well, having high scores for quizzes, yet you’re confidently
letting your outburst of rage and spurring things you have no power of knowing.
I never really like this lecturer
since the first class, and I’ve had enough. I still need to attend her classes
in order for me to pass this subject. She even rejected our opinions when she’s
obviously asked for them. During discussion, we were giving out opinions and
laughing at the random ideas that popped out of someone’s mind, and being the
strict ass lecturer she is, she told us to shut up and be serious, don’t laugh
and whatnot. And, I’ve always thought softskill would be the most anticipated
class throughout the whole semester. But she prove me wrong. I don’t understand
how she is soo rigid, you’re teaching softskill for God’s sake, it was
supposedly be a chill and relaxing class. But I guess, that’s not the case.
