#32

So, I just read about Naddysushi and her boyfriend who cheated on her. Even a person as pretty as her is cheget cheated on. Even Angelina Jolie was cheated by Brad.

So, I've been thinking about that thing that happened to me few months back. Well, its not that he cheated on me. Nor that we had anything to begin with.

Its just that, it sucks. You girls mustve been thinking like, move on. Its been so long. Get over it.

Hell, I'm doing my best to get over with it. But its not just a petty matter to me though. I've been thinking a lot. Like, was I too easy for him? Do I look as a merely a temporal satisfaction? A temporal place to be all mushy and pour all his sweet loving words to? Was I just a damn toy to begin with? Was it because what I did before? Was it because I ignored him too much bedore this? Was it a revenge? Did he ever meant anything he said? Was saying "i love you" a joke to him?

I wonder what were we before. I wonder what did you labelled us as. It was humiliating. It was a damn torture. It was pathetic. I felt pathetic. I feel like a damn trash.

How could you, go around giving false hope to me when I was at my weakest and left me dumbfounded with the cold truth. True, truth is better than lies. The pain was better than your sugar coated lies. You know, like the sour skittle. The sour layer gives you a slap in your face, waking you up. Gives a good amount of pain on your tongue. But the aftertaste is sweet, so sweet. It makes you forget about the first layer that wasnt a pleasant one, but it was worth it.

I told my friends about you, they told me I deserve  better. They told me you never deserved me. They said that you lost me big time, that you're going to regret this. But from I see, you're doing well, you're doing fantastic to be very honest. You're fine. You're doing okay. You never have the thought to check on me, to try and explain yourself.

But here I am, being pathetic at my best. Trying to erase every trace of you. Trying to forget everything that could relates to you.

I wish I never liked you too much. If so, I wouldn't be in such pain. If so, I won't be so broken hearted that I look like a damn loser and you won.

#31

Hey peeps. So I went to Bandung recently with my fambam. Quite fun but the only problem was it was raining the whole time and I was basically drenched wet and that's the main reason why I'm still sick with three combo-cough,flu&fever. 

I literally used up my kleenex the 50 sheets one in a day and voice is weird and I almost lost my voice and it's not a great one. But anyways, the whole trip was a bunch of joy. And I used up a lot of money, thanks Dad!!!!!

very pink

Here's the welcome snack that the Hotel gave us. Usually they serve welcoming drinks but why not. 

We bought internet data simPATI, 12gb for 100000rp which is RM35.

The makciks that wake us up at 4AM for subuh without directly waking us up.

my partner of "ambikkan gambar I dekat sini, lighting lawa, background lawa"

We went for supper bc we're damn hungry we skipped dinner for shopping.

Behind the scene of every OOTD

Here's to the kebaya that I wanted but I don't really wear kebaya but it's damn pretty.

When they took jerebu the literal way.

Family photo!

#30

Woop woop! Finally reaching the 30th post!

So anyways, I've been thinking a lot about antis and how they spend their days sending death threats and hateful comments. I mean, why.

How do they have so many times hating on someone who did nothing wrong to them and yet, they're throwing hates as if that person did so bad. I mean, saying to someone he should've died, or "your dad should've died with you", "you don't deserve to be alive", "you're a threat to the society".

Okay seriously, I mean, of course that person just doesn't meet your level of likeness or whatever. But being so hateful and discouraging is just a big no-no. Why don't you just bother with your own life and stop being a big bully so someone. Why do you waste your time and money to go to someone's concert that you didn't even like just to throw rubbish on the stage and attack someone with laser. Grow up people, the world is so old, and I believe you're older than your mental age, so behave like one. It's sickening how people get discouraged and agreed with the cyberbullies that they don't deserve to be alive and took their own life by committing suicide.

Aren't the society being to mean?