#39

Here's nothing much going on in live. I sleep late, woke up late.

I was watching some movies and then it hit me - I'm going to degree in a few weeks! That's nut!

How can a little girl like me (okay, no need to emphasize that I'm not small in terms of age and size), go through degree in a few weeks and to make it worse, they're sending me to Sarawak. What in the world was I even thinking. 

And to make it even worse, it's not the course that I've always wanted. It's that one particular course that I said to myself as I was choosing for 12 choices, "Eh, what the heck, I'll just put this to fill it the choices, I won't get this ever." 

So, that's karma for you, girl. 

I've been contemplating whether or not to go that far for my degree. It's for 4 years for god's sake! 

I've built up courage and gathered strength from people around me, telling me that they believe I'll be just find, telling me I'll do well, telling me 4 years is not too long (okay but seriously wth)

The thought of being to far away from my family makes me shudder. Never in my life has I ever been more than 70km away from home. The furthest I've been was in Seremban for 2 years. Now that I'll be going to Sarawak fro 4 years, completing my degree in the course that I have no idea how I'm going to make myself like it, I seriously messed up. But I believe God has planned my journey for better. So I shall do whatever it takes, to survive that far.

I keep thinking to make an appeal, but I thought about how poorly I did on my finals and to be able to get a place for degree, I should be thankful and go with it. 4 years. I'll come back in 4 years, graduating with honor. 

I'm going to miss Kuala Lumpur, I'm going to miss KLCC. But I'll be fine. Pray for me. My heart goes to my friends who haven't yet gotten accepted in any Universities, I know you guys will do well, just pray and stay positive. 

Till then, bye.