Life's hard and no one could ever deny it. It never goes the way you wanted. But it's you who need to go with the flow. I never knew I could ever be accepted for SBP after being rejected several times, my heart had died for SBP anyways. But the only reason I went for it was for my family, I guess. What else could be the reason? Apparently, I survived months after months of mental torture there. Nothing big though, just the craps, you know, dramas. Not that I was surprised. Its girls school, all girls, hormones, emotional, pretty much equivalent towards drama. I never thought of quitting though. I guess, I'm doing pretty good in coping shits like that.
Now here's the best part. I learnt not to get too close with someone because everything that you do, you say, you think, might, or might not, hurt that someone's feeling and thus, world war III happens. You see, I get attached to someone easily, heck I could be clingy and people can't be mad because I'm that irresistible (that's what they said anyways). I say what I want to say, heck, I don't even give a single damn about your damn feelings, I'm used to that kind of shits okay. Little that I knew some people are very sensitive and some are hell insensitive.
To be very honest, I reached the point where I don'y give a single damn about anyone around me and I just want Form 5 to end soon, though we're not even starting yet. And please, I held no power to go against anyone's decision to quit or whatever. I mean, who am I to tell you what's wrong and what't right. But I just wish that I held a place, somewhere in your heart to actually be the alternate reason for you to stay. But heck, I know I don't and people around me kept telling me that I'm the only one who could fix that. You mean a lot to us, and that's the only thing that matters. I'm hoping to see you on the first day in SGS.
