I'm not friendly and I have no plan to be one. Someone I just met in Petrosains said I was friendly, I wasn't impressed, I know I'm not one.
I find it hard to make friends and to just casually lepak with anyone I just met. I don't like it, I feel anxious. Whenever a guy started to approach me and be all friendly I would thought that it was maybe a bet they did with their friends. Did I developed a new phobia? I guess I did.
When someone called me Qin instead of Syiqin or Qee, it felt weird and a tad bit uncomfortable. I get it, Syiqin might be too long or Qin sounds cuter than Syiqin. But the only ones who called me Qin is my family and close friends; Kinah, Alia, Adenn, Iman, Fatin, Lala, Yana.
It's not that I don't want them to call me Qin, it's just that the name brings the sense of affections and closeness that I thought the name itself is special. But so many started calling me Qin to the point I'm giving up on the special nickname and I'm letting them call me whatever they want. Call me sayang or yours while you're at it.
