How to not get tired of studying? I may ask. I may seek for the answer yet I'm still the same. Don't tell me I didn't try because damn girl I'm getting dark circles again. When was the last time I had them. Dad said he believed in me. He said he knows I could do it. Thank you for the motivation but I'm scared. Scared to disappoint everyone. Scared to give myself a false hope. I'm trying so hard that I think I'm at the peak of giving up. Nobody said it's going to be easy, never did I ever thought that it will. With the presence of my friends, I hope their strength will help me.
Talking about friends, I treasure our friendship.
I treasure it so much that I'm scared to lose you girls. I'm scared of hurting you girls. I'm scared that we'll somehow grew up and the distance between us will grow as well. Thank you for being my pillar of strength throughout the year. Thank you for being my companion. Thank you for studying together and making me realize that it is okay to study in group rather than locking myself from the world to study alone. Thank you for bringing myself back in live, more lively than ever. Thank you for eing the reason for the me be strong for any circumstances.You guys are my constant variables I guess. The one that I will cherish in my life.
I want this friendship to last. I want to go on road trip together, going somewhere we never know existed in Malaysia. I want to ave sleepovers, where we could sleep late talking shits about everything we wanted. Maybe talk about what we hate about each other and vice versa and pretty much solve everyone's problem. I want to go on adventures. But most importantly, I want to be successful with you girls by my side. I want to go to the highest peak of life and looking beside me, seeing you girls as successful as I am. I want to grow old with you girls. Get married, get married and keep having kids and we'll be on our kids' wedding and we'll talk about our past and laugh.
I want us to be like this together and I hope nothing goes wrong.
Hugs and kisses nigzzz, I love you shits
