#19

This beautiful picture over here was captured by one of my batchmate, whom I don't remember which one of them. But yeah, one of them lah.

I miss school, or I miss my friends either way, I miss how fun my life was compared to now. Which consist of me lying flat on my bed in front of this particular lap top watching some kdramas or grey's anatomy and rewatching running man. God, life was so hectic before what happened? So anyways, I have no vivid memories from R1, it was pretty shitty tbvh. Nothing special. Nothing much done. But I miss being in SGS though. I never imagined myself being stuck in boarding school, yet again its all-girls school. What's there to lose? It was fun. A lot of stories I'll tell my grandchildren latuuurrrr.

Have you ever thought of waking up so early in the morning to rush to the shower or else you'll be late? Having to queue for the shower soooooo early in those unearthly hour. I wasn't even half awake by that time. And then rushing to musolla for Subuh prayer and then dashing to breakfast because you're just extremely hungry all the time but realizing the breakfast was the devastating koko krunch or the weird tasting kuey teow, which was the main reason everyone went to the toilet after perhimpunan? Good times.

I miss trying to run away from prefects during perhimpunan because I wasn't wearing kain dalam or scarf or nametag either one but I'm always running away. I miss walking to Frozen or Library. I miss prep time. It's always hectic and loud and everything. There's someone shouting or crying or laughing or sleeping or sick there's just so much happening and it was fun. We'll always say once I step out of this hell, I'll never want to come back here. Lies. I hate this school. Lies. I don't even want to remember anything from here. Lies. What's there to appreciate here? Lies.

Those little lies we told ourselves just to make us feel better about not being home. Don't make me start on the homesickness. Kuala Lumpur and Seremban. It's quite near but I don't even understand myself why am I always sad being away from family. It's not that they didn't come on weekends during lunch. It's not that I can't call them or anything. I even sneak in my phone to school although it is against the rule. But, when are you going to break the rules if it isn't during your school time? Please guys, the spotcheck and everything wasn't really a big deal.

Anyways, I miss my friends. I miss eating during class, sleeping. Telling Kida or Jaja "take 5" but I'll wake up seeing both of them sleeping. Running away from dorm during weekends simply because my idea of studying is to be far away from bed. But right after I came to class I'll gather the chairs and sleep with Kida. Telling Jaja, Kida and Mira that I'll be studying in class after prep but end up sleeping again. Going back to dorm seeing everyone sleeping and only waking up for lunch. Then head out to ampaian, take all the clothes and then dump the clothes on the bed and continue sleeping on the floor or someone's bed.

I miss prep malam, where we'll be in Bilik Bahasa, study group. Eating and trying to sneak food when Cikgu Wan was the warden. Staying there until late night trying to understand those Physics law. Trying to explain things to everyone. Getting scolded by the ones studying at Bilik Sejarah because we're making too much noise. Oh and the best part is going to koop. Buying ice cream and keropok and chocs and muffin and pretty much everything we can but. And we keep asking why are we getting fat instead of losing those fats. The rushing to DM because it's mee hailam night or mihun sup night. The ultimate disgust we have seeing roti pizza or roti kacang for supper.

Being in all-girls school has unfortunately turn me into some shy kid who would walk longer route because she saw a group of boys in front. Or looking for other cashier if it's a male at the counter. Those 2 years of being locked up there pretty much make me nervous around the opposite gender though I've always been a shy girl. Don't puke, guys, I'm not lying. Stop saying I'm lying. I love you guys pls.

Okay whatever, I'll get going. Bye

Oh before that, here's my spam for today.

 sovere(i)gn 1415

 taiks from permai 2

 annoying

 dcl

 vsp 

 taiks in makeup

paling annoying

#18

Hey guys, do you like my new blog playlist? Because I loooooooooooove love love love love it, of course I do. I chose it. Duh, obviously.

Okay, so btw. I was supposedly go to Central Market today with Mira and Syirah to settle the problem regardless the mistake that akak did to our dance team tshirt. The problem that angered me and nearly made me burn her shop down. So basically, our tshirt should have this glittery words of DANCE, which took me hours of editing and choosing the right color of glitter and my bad photoshop skills. But, she said they couldn't do the glitter things, so I let it go with heavy heart and went on with her own design. Then, she told me our varsity is ready, I was so proud of the result. It was puuuuuuuurfect! So I asked her about the tshirt, which she replied with, will be sent to the factory for printing. Which, by unknown reason, made me mad. I mean, why is it not? I thought the varsity took you long enough? Hello? It's been months? But, okay. Just go with the flow I guess.

Then few days after that, she called me and asked me whether the word DANCE was in black color? I nearly yelled at her to be very honest. Because it was clear that the design that I gave her was in magenta. I was like, excuse me, its not supposed to be black? What are you talking about, guuuurl? So she sent me the picture of the tshirt and I almost cried. They got all the colors wrong! HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE GUUUURL! I told her, I don't want it, it's either they give me refunds or print new one. She insist that it's not possible to do so, and insist on giving discount for the tshirt. Excuse me, lady, I don't need no discount. I want the tshirt to be like how it was suppose to be, lady please. Can you not anger me more than you already have? So I told Mira to talk to her because I might end up cursing her non-stop, which isn't a pretty thing to do. So finally, after all the discussion she finally gave in! She told us she'll print the new ones. But! But, she pointed out that we need to choose the color correctly and not to ask for reprinting. Excuse me lady, not our fault that you didn't give us any sample before proceeding, now, isn't it? So, basically, it will be done by next week. Hopefully before I go to Korea so that I could bring the varsity there *heart eyes emoji*

Cancelled the plan for Central Market but Mira told me she's already at her mom's office. We had out usual last minute date to Sunway Putra. Which I haven't been to. And since mom is not home so there's no car that I can drive, now I need to get this straight. I don't have my driving license yet, but I can drive, so yeah. So anyway, it meant that I need to go there my public transport, which I hate, zzzz. Anyway, took the cab to LRT Setiawangsa because mom's not home to sent me there. So here's the confusing thing though. I need to transit to Masjid Jamek and take the train from Ampang Line heading to Sentul Timur. Which I didn't even know! So I was so damn confident and went to the ones heading to Ampang. Told Mira I was already in Pudu when she asked me where am I heading to. I almost cried when I realized I took the wrong lane! I wanted to dash out of the train but the door was closed. So I drop at Chan Sow Lin. What a long journey sia, no joke!

So I just asked this auntie, where the train to PWTC? She told me to go the lane next to the one I got off. Went on the train and realized that I've yet again took the wrong train since it's heading to Maluri. God, why today? Why is it today of all the other day when it's scorching hot today, God why?! Again! I got off at Maluri and look for the lane heading to Sentul Timur, and waited for a good 5 minutes with the hot weather. I smelled like crap and I was sweating like pig. Thank God it was the right train. I felt like curling myself into a ball and just roll around the train just as a sign of disappointment to myself. I've been in KL since birth and that's not even the first time I got on the wrong train. God, save me from wasting more time going the wrong ways.

Basically arrived Sunway Putra around 1.15P.M when we actually planned to meet around 12P.M. I'm just soooooooo blessed to actually see Mira after the long journey around KL. Had lunch at boat noodle and ordered to much food but no worries we finished everything. Just a little piece here and there but nothing big, Everything's pretty much finished. Went around the malls and just laugh about pretty much everything and anything, I think we were losing it tbvh. Oh btw, we bought couple necklace. Not really for couples though, for soul sister or something like that? Pretty cute aren't we?

*yes my fat chubby hand if you guys miss playing and pinching my hands, here's a picture of it. Maybe you can take me out for lunch and you can hold my hand for a day, please guys, I have nothing much to do after I quit working*

Anyways, that's pretty much it. I'm really really really tired and I just hope the next time I'm going anywhere by public transport, I will never go the wrong directions/lane/sides/trains/bus whatever you name it. I've been through hell.

Lots of Love,
Qeeute sangat

#17

So, the 17th post is dedicated to my maturing self because it's my favorite number! Yay 17!

The first step of my so-called "Let's Get Matured" starter kit was supposedly the "No Kpop Challenge" that I planned out with Hanis. Just thought that, it's too childish to keep on fangirling over Kpop idols after so long. Pointed out, lets put it on a halt. That's what I said. Though, it didn't turn out well. Since I have nothing else to do rather than scrolling down my Vines and there's the too many Kpop related Vines and I just can't simply say no to scroll down even further down the pit of hell. No joke. So it failed. But who cares. I'm good.

Now, there's a dramatic change that I have finally figured out about myself. The insecurities about my looks. Though, I was insecure about my weight. I mean, being a fat ass I am, there's just one question I have to all the skinny homo sapiens in this universe, how do you resist food. Okay, so maybe you have better metabolism rate than me yada yada I get it whatever. Maybe you workout once or twice a week, which, I should've done that long ago. Okay. My fault than. But the insecurities about the look is beyond my own expectation though. I have been buying makeups. Yay me! I did it!

No guys, I don't do contour whatsoever. That's just too much. I have BB Cushion from April Skin which cost me a life but thank God I've been working part time so it didn't kill me that much. But I really so died a little bit on the inside.

So, I got this set right here. It comes with the BB Cushion. Facial wash for day and night and the whitening Magic Snow, which I didn't use because it scares the shit out of me when I see how fair it made me look like. Which is a plus point why I shouldn't regret buying but I know how dark my skin is so no point lying to myself.  So the facial wash has been a great help with my oily skin and acne-prone skin. Still have those nasty pimples, but not as much as I do back then. The BB Cushion is pretty good, I mean I can't really compare it to any other BB cushion, it's my first one. But it was okay, SPF 50++, which is pretty necessary right now. Bought the whole set for RM250. Believe me, I don't understand myself either, but I'm cool. 

So basically, this is the holy grail. I don't even believe myself though. I got my own makeup pouch and the just too much to put in such small pouch. Look at all those shit thingy that I have. Congratulation dear 18 year old self. You did it. You spent all your money on this, how does it feel like, dear self. Was it fun, dear self? Was it? 

But either way, gotta tell you guys that I love love love love love NYX. The matte lipstick is da bomb but hands down to the all time fav NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream. I had Addis Ababa before, a pretty pink shade *heart eyes emoji* So bought the NYX Butter Lipstick in Fireball. Slight orange tint, which I'm not that huge fan of. Thus, the reason why it haven't finished up my now. Got the liptints, which doesn't really cost that much and it just make me all happy and yeah, just happy. What else is there. Got the NYX Soft Matte Lip Cream from Lala, which she accidentally bought the wrong color for herself so she told me to choose between Milan and Ibiza, and she'll sell the other one. So I though, why not but one and get one for free? Thus, the ultimate reason why I have both Ibiza and Milan in my makeup pouch. 

There's my rant about makeup. Didn't see that coming was it? Me neither. Don't worry, I'll try and look for some mascara and lip liner and bronzer and just pretty much everything and be a makeup geek.

Just kidding. I'm good. 

Till then. * heart emoji*